Let's say goodbye while we still can

and there was you
i know you feel it too
the sweetness we exchange
even our friends notice it too

few relations ended for me
lets just say i can't handle commitments
but with you nothing's there to say
we just go about it like there is nothing on our way

friends i know we are very close infact
that one time i posed as your lover
when one of your suitors got suicidal
that turned out alright but not for that guy

how could you even define this
i can even sleep at your house
your dad even invites me for drinks
so close i know we are, wink wink

let's say goodbye while we still can
i don't want to ruin this perfect thing
commiting to a relationship i can't do
but i need  to be always with you

love letters

writing it down without regret
words from my heart it does not want to forget
tried a few lines to describe how i feel
words my not be enough to show you its for real

just keeping the letters after completion
still don't have the courage to send
my love letters i just hide
like the feelings i have inside


i try not to read them again
those letters i never send
will only remind me how
how much i love you please don't ask why 

gaze

found myself just gazing
blankly staring
realized something
tears started falling

from the deepest part of my memory
something came up and shook me
not really knowing what the fuss was about
only felt like my heart broke apart

i sat down and started to feel it again
forgotten dreams now returning
old wishes that never came through
the emptiness greeted me hello

many summers have passed
after the farewell she had
nothing came to cheer me up
memories lingered so that was it

wish

I really wish she is one of the people viewing my blog,

just that simple thought that still can make me smile
i can still see how her face looks while she smiles
just wishing one of the things i have written here
makes her smile

no clue

i can see it, like crumpled paper
after love set it aside
only needs the waste bin
and death was complete

oh yes that was my heart
like yesterdays hotdog wrapper
no second thoughts disposed of after
i would like to scream out

tell you how much hurt you have caused
not a clue i know, you don't even know me
just some guy writing things
writing things nobody will understand

soul mates

like any other, tried to find love like the others
few flings here and there not really true love
still trying to find the last love i would have
out there somewhere my soul mate i know i have

just waiting and not searching
i did not want to look too trying
but time marches on and i am being left alone
no hands to reach to  no eyes to see myself through

i just wish my life is like a korean movie
where in if  a lifetime love is not found
another lifetime is there for another chance
a chance to make love come true

with that someone that was always destined for you
no matter how many lifetimes each lives through
love always finds each others hearts
because that is what soul mates do

my week

monday mornings the worst day of the week
like going to war with just a toothpick
tuesdays a hangover from yesterdays drift
still bleeding from all those battle scars

wednesdays i feel like singing
middle of the week i start celebrating
thursdays almost home feel like crying
anticipation brewing hard to put a lid on

friday nights i know you are waiting
ready with that dress where everthing is showing
satudays we just go out shopping
i easily get tired because im the one paying

sundays filled with regret
did not even had a chance to say hey happy weekend
oh well monday again got to fight my way through
wishing everyday is friday so that im always with you

smile for me

haven't been doing that for quite a while
never really had a chance to smile
forgotten how to make that glow
lost the feeling that shows

again

and words failed me  not able to say
all the things inside me to no avail
cannot stand still just trembling in fear
the truth is withheld i need to protect her

Raining

lifes struggle to find love and be loved
hardships endured for that special some one
after all the heart aches and failed relations
finally love came within your expectations


happiness is a choice they said
is there love after time stops?
still nobody out there can say
after all that pain finally love is there

time stops on us and then nobody can remember
how sacrificies were made to make love linger
then time comes and takes it all back
maybe we can be lucky and love reincarnates us

smile

kahit masakit. smile kahit na pilit,
smile basta lang para di halata,
smile lang parati para mawala,
smile just smile kahit naka tulala

smile lang kung nalulungkot
wag mong ipahalata ang sakit na dulot
ang pusong kay tagal nalungkot
ngiti lang ang gamot sana ikaw ang magdulot

overtime

overtime

brought with me my old phone with the reliable earbuds
still sounds great my 5 year old nokia
and the music flowed bringing back emotions buried
the song mahal kita by maricris garcia

and it shook me, from beneath mah thoughts
she came back, she was singing part of this song
for me she said it was for me, and i felt regret
regretting  the things i did and did not do

songs from my old phone  songs reminded me
of a time were i was  inlove and happy
old wounds reopened by emotions brought back
brought back by her song. mahal kita.

her voice so sweet as if she was near me
whispering the words mahal kita
while our lips almost touch
and eyes almost closed
feeling of happiness back then
now just regret, realized nothing really happened

rainy day

magdamag na atang naka tunganga
di na pinansin ang liwanag
naka tihaya parin sa kama
kisame lang kasama

oo parang ang bagal ng panahon
sa paghihintay sa pagdating ng kahapon
nakakagulat lang naman
bukas ay natapos ng ganun lamang


at di parin nakuhang tumayo
inat inat lang sabay tiklop
napapangiti sarap
at agad nagtago sa kumot


masarap pakinggan  tunog ng ulan
maalala mo ngalang yakap nyang
kay tagal mo ng di naramdaman
kayat tuwing umuulan iiyak nalang

tunog ng ulan bigay ay katahimikan
subalit mga alaalang hatid
para bang binibiyak dibdib
umuulan nuon ng syay umalis
umuulan din ngayon syay aking na mimiss

i want to learn this

missing you

missing you

i miss the old you
that always gives a kiss
i miss the things that we do
that makes me blush with each embrace


i miss the way you make me laugh
you can easily remove the protective wall i have
i miss the old us, please just come back
missing you i know, missing me? i dont know.

You could've left me on my own but you're here. (title from ms Jonalyn's tweet)

You could've left me on my own but you're here.


so this is the end  i felt it in me
those eyes betrayed you i see
warm hands started to leave me
hold on hold on, still you left me


opened my eyes again and there i see,
myself in your eyes crying joyfully
you could've  left me on my own
but you are here with me.

was it just a bad dream?
or just my imagination
please don't do this again
don't ever stop kissing me.

goodbye hello

hard to say, even harder to take
seen it a few times and not cared
smiles thrown my way did not mind
not given a thought whats behind

only now i realize
those smiles i wanted to have
been a while waiting
missed those days of her just gazing

well better stop wishing
for those days knocking
i've let go before holding
said goodbye to her greeting

dark room

maaga pa, wala pa ang liwanag
ngunit ramdam kong panahong lumipas
kahit saglit na sinag mula sayo
wala paring maaninag

matagal naring inaasam
pagbalik ng nakaraan
mga alaalang galak nakaptan
ngayon parati nasa dilim lamang

naghihintay lamang di maka galaw
sa sariling sulok ng kalungkutan
madalas mag ikot pero andito lamang
wala na magagawa kundi umiyak lang

siomai for miss maricris garcia

siomai

siomai siomai penge ako ng siomai
sarap kasi spicy kagat labi grabe
oh siomai siomai bakit ka masarap
naalala ko tuloy una kaming nag harap


sa siomai house nagkabunggo
habang sabay kaming nasubo
natusok ako ng aking stick
sya naman nabuhusan ng drinks


oh sorry miss agad kong nsabi
kahit naka baon pa stick sa labi
parang natawa na naawa sya
pagkat kahit basa damit nya napatawa


ok lang, mas malma ka naman
at saka ko napansin stick naka tusok skin
agad kong binunot at napatawa
tanong nya. masakit ba?

di ko agad nasagot tanong ng dalaga
nabighani agad sa ngiti nya.
napalunok nalang kahit buo pa siomai
muntik ng mabulunan sabay dighay

ok ok lang ako sabay hawak sa kamay
di naman tumanggi ang dalaga
ngiti ang sinukli sa aking pagdiga
sige ah bye, agad na umalis
at naiwan akong nakatitig

habol ng tingin sa restroom punta
napaisip akong wait ko sya sa bukana
ano naman sasabihin ko?
baka isipin nya stalker na ako
gusto lang malaman name nya ano!


at ayan na sya. now ko lang nakilala
si maricris garcia pala sya.
isip ko baka naman mali lang tingin ko
pero sya nga ang may mantsa shirt

oh tandhana ok lang matusok parati ng stick
basta ba parati ko nakakabangga
syang aking pangarap makadambana
oh dinga. sabay gising mula sa pagtoma.

a night like this

a night like this

a warm feeling while the wind swirls a bunch of leaves
not tonight please i thought but memories still re-surfaced
same as tonight  the stars were out  with the bright moonlight
a night like this the moon cried for my heart that died

lazy

magdamag na atang naka tunganga
di na pinansin ang liwanag
naka tihaya parin sa kama
kisame lang kasama

oo parang ang bagal ng panahon
sa paghihintay sa pagdating ng kahapon
nakakagulat lang naman
bukas ay natapos ng ganun lamang


at di parin nakuhang tumayo
inat inat lang sabay tiklop
napapangiti sarap
at agad nagtago sa kumot

ulan

masarap pakinggan  tunog ng ulan
maalala mo ngalang yakap nyang
kay tagal mo ng di naramdaman
kayat tuwing umuulan iiyak nalang

tunog ng ulan bigay ay katahimikan
subalit mga alaalang hatid
para bang binibiyak dibdib
umuulan nuon ng syay umalis
umuulan din ngayon syay aking na mimiss

gusto ko ito

just wanted to hold you
is that too much to ask?
a few minutes of your time
please don't deny this act

So long ago i held you in my arms
now please let me have that back
to just look into your eyes
and listen to your voice again

all i ever wanted was to have you in the end

nawawala

wondering around
wanting something
feeling something lacking
couldn't think of whats missing

then i remembered falling
in and out of love like playing
so many feelings mixed
a lot of them doing tricks

So again wondering
could it be that
in the end
nothing is left to be said.

siopao for miss jonalyn viray

gusto ko po ng siopao
spagetti at ice cream
si miss jonalyn
gusto ko ring kapiling

di bale nang agawan ako
sa siopao na masarap
basta sa akin lang syang nakaharap
sige na nga spagetti sa kanya na
subuan ko pa sya ng ice cream ah

sa tag ulan parati ko sya sundo hatid
para sure lamig di sa kanya sumapit
mainit na mga yakap panangga
payong namin ay di kailangang ibuka


at sa pag dating sa kanyang bahay
halik agad na kunwari nagulat
alam naman nyang paparating yun
halik sa kanya kailangang dumampi sa maghapon

nanaginip na naman ako
well sarap kasi ng feeling na ito
si miss jona kasama ko
sa panaginip lang pwede ito