i only get lonely when im with other people

laughing smiling and yet
i could not understand what they are saying
a few burts of conversation
i just don't like talking anymore

joking around trying to impress
i don't want to them know im depressed
in my eyes it shows even if my smile glows
window to my soul only she knows all

tried a few things here and there
a few drinks to strenghten the nerves
once i was able to score but
it just made miss her much more

alone with people around
just makes me lonely somehow
i better just go back
saddens me even more memories all i have