may sayad

maingay dito sakit na ulo ko
pakiusap naman itigil nyo
tuloy parin wala pakialam
nag sisiksikan saking kamalayan

mga boses nilang kay lakas
sabay sabay wala ng lunas
sa aking isip silay naninirahan
pakiusap naman akoy lubayan

kailangang kumanta
para silay di madinig
lakasan ang boses ngunit
walang kantang maisip

kantahan mo ako
irog akoy iyong tulungan
bigyan ng katahimikan
akoy iyong kantahan 

read this first

i keep on posting things  just update this blog
usually feelings towards people i love
most times poems about la diva, marian rivera
i try to re create a  feeling
love before i had, now imaginations runs wild


at the back of mah mind
maybe hoping that she'll find
words we exchanged before
she'll read them again
remember what we had back then

love is actually

what reasons do one give for each heartbeat that is felt
exploding each time a welcome feeling so divine
words are hard to come by to describe the way you slay my
heart so warm with each glance you throw to my eyes

someone that i used to love (aicelle santos)

farther  now after all these years
all those smiles we exchanged
memories now all they are
from someone that i used to love

looking back and still i can feel
the last kiss we shared
the last kiss before our goodbye
the only kiss i'll have for all time

feelings of regret and should have said
maybe a little more of, but couldn't mend
all stayed in me except you that left
i'll just carry until i have no more breath

If this is my last dance . please let it be with you Miss Garcia

mga crush ko

mga crush oh

sooo cute

yakap

dama ko parin ang init ng yakap mo
parang dumikit na sa katawan ko
inaamoy amoy sarili ko
pagkat nandun parin perfume mo

at habang nakangiti hawak sariling bisig
pumapasok sa aking isip mga mata mong nakatitig
magkayakap buong gabi yan ang madalas nasaisip
pero lungkot lang ang kasama pagkat wala na sa aking piling

yakap mo sanay muling madama
nagpaalam kana pero akoy umaasa
larawan mo parati ko kaharap
pinapanit ko sa aking mga yakap

sailboat

a few more tries and i'll call it quits

so nobody can tell me "you did not do your best"

but who are they for me to believe?

i am the captain of my own ship 

ok i got lost on a few occasions

but that doesn't mean  i'm an idiot on navigation

just a few decisions based on bad information

i got caught with that body language filled with deceptions 

so sail on i say to all,  maybe somewhere

this old boat will meet its destined shore 

MYG

nakakainis nakakaasar  ayaw ko na ngang mag twitter
kasi ba naman may nakikita akong mga patunay
na akoy stalker lamang, sa babaeng mundo koy iaalay
oh instagram bakit kapa na invent yan tuloy akoy nasakat sa nasilayan

11 months na daw sila at malapit na isang taon
kalbo naman yun at maspogi naman ako dun
pero syempre lamang ang kalbong yun
kasi napa ibig nya ang  myg kong inirog

madami narin akong nagawang tula
upang ipahiwatig ang nararamdaman
subalit mukang di nya alam
pagkat akoy isang stalker lamang
bow...

39

haven’t really proven anything to the world
planned a few things back when i was young
until now all are still plans, nothing done
like owning the house with a big pool

now i feel like a fool
bad choices made before
told myself just a few years more
but sadly i can no longer ignore

1 more year and I’m over the cliff
expecting the rest of my life with grief
nothing i have done to make me stand out
just wanted to be immortal, please have a heart

nababasa kaya nya?

sulat ng sulat ano ba talaga gusto iparating?
kung ano ano ng naitala mula sa isang praning
sige na nga aaminin ko na dahilan ng pagka abala
baka sakali lang kasi bumalik pa sya kahit man lang sa pagbabasa

madami ng naisulat para baka sakaling sya makabasa
bawat sulat ko kasi para ipalam na
nag sisisi ako at humihingi ng tawad
sa bawat letra at sulat. sana nga bawat viewer ng pages na to
isa sya sa napapabasa ko. 

sana ngayong pasko

don't want to wake today
rolled up under the covers all day
planned nothing thought of things
wish christmas would just go away

so many december 25's flew by
not one got me teary eyed
but this one blew my mind
the night before xmas again i was left behind.

emir

natuwa nalungkot natuwa nalungkot natuwa nalungkot .

dun sa ending eh parang masaya narin pero sad .
kasi anong age na ba nila nung nagkatuluyan?
parang unting panahon nalang silang magsasama as magasawa
ok matagal silang magkasama sa work. kilala na nila isat isa
pero parang sad parin kay tagal na naglingkod parang unti time maging masaya


ewan. hehe pero great movie. galing ni ms frenchie and all.

my world stood still

the day my world stood still
only time my heart was not ill
having that moment again i would kill
sadly nothing can be done until

a second chance given to me
this time i'll take care of thee
remembering all that should not be
ill just hug you and until you grow tired of me.

moon

moon so bright please grant my wish tonight
moon oh moon with that ray of light
i wish she's also looking at you tonight
so you could whisper to her things i am  crying out loud

i miss you please come back
heart needs to be unstuck
got to have that love tonight
let me hear that sweet voice all night.

and she was gone

and she was gone

woke up and started screaming
no cream for me please i'm dieting
but alas nobody answered nobody there
just my dog pokki staring with despair


i don't want to remember forced my mind to pause
on anything hurtful and my head feels like old toast
and she was gone a reality i can't comprehend
voices in my head helps me to transcend

the end of the world

my world is ending and i can't stop
the love from leaving me please enough
head aching no longer can bear
i need to just walk and whisper all the way


listen to myself and be convinced
nobody left they are all still here
running around still can't find anyone
please show yourself love  i am very lonesome. 

push play

push play  and my world comes to life
with the sound from an angel my heart beats aloud
songs that i came to know from you i would like to own
silly of me, nobody can take ownership of thee


but still mah heart yearns mah thoughts contains you only
found a reason for each heartbeat i give out
each pounding this muscle says aloud
is an i love you maricris and thank you for sharing the love 

aicelle

i love you in the next life
can't belong so many things wrong
wanted to just say goodbye
no more hurting no more cryin'
stop these feelings nobody is listening

get out get out  i dont want to be here
leave me please but  don't you dare
hurt me again i beg you
no despair confused feelings
help me nobody cares

jonalyn viray

to reach out and touch you each day i try to do
a little hard to do , just a fan far from you
i just surround myself with your songs
to make each day move along

voice that gives warmth
wanna just hug and kiss you
while i listen to that sweet melody
of you kissing me while we say i love you 

misty eyes (maricris garcia)

let me just stare into those eyes
they are like gems in the sky
like those lips that shouts here i am
lets just kiss while we both lay.


i love you from the very start
i need you please don't let me depart
come on over and whisper in mah ear
misty eyes i get because you are my dear

write something

better start writing to save myself from daydreaming
make mah fingers busy while my mind starts screaming
no sorry nothing yet to share nothing conjured up inside me
concentrate and type think of days gone by and smile

smiling but not really sincere so nothing inspirational dear
could have said i'm sorry , but all i said was i'm hungry
days weeks and month's flew by still nothing to write
nothing came to mind after you said goodbye .

ngiti

iduyan mo ako gamit ang tuwa
mula sa puso mong nagagalak
hayaang maidlip hawak ang kamay
nakapatong saking dibdib puso koy walang aray


ayaw kong matapos ang gabi
pigilan sumikat ang araw
gusto ko lamang kaw ay manatili
katabi at sakin lamang mga ngiti

unicorn

just sitting all day with a wide screen display
copy paste there copy paste here
can't complain sitting 8 hours a day
mind wonders off somewhere


riding a unicorn while eating a burrito
no clothes on my dingdong waves at you
floating away i feel the need to dance
come  with me but take off your pants

a voice startled me   back from the void
i need that report now! my boss shouting like a frog.
bye bye unicorn maybe next time i'll wear clothes. 

pain

nothing comes to mind

while trying to write down

like outer space in my head

these things i cannot comprehend 

grasping at straws i tried to explain

never ending sorry's all that came

could have used more of my brain 

the agony of knowing i've caused you pain

earth

tired of this, please no more of that
just wanted to sit alone, so stop.
constantly reminded that I am alive
should have just stayed home and cry

looking out and staring in
can't find that person inside me crying
even if I start screaming
can't hear anything nobody is listening

maybe tomorrow I don't have to be
waiting for someone destined for me
hoping that all will just disappear
ok ok let it just be me that leaves this earth

blank

nothing to write nothing in mind, wanted to say something and yet still nothing rhymes 

holding on caressing each key this backspace is all that i can see

wondering how to start a song, melody is there but still there is something wrong. 

trying to stay sane all these years, harder still to forget all those tears

like rain cold as December i left her crying never to come back to thee 

each day that passed i have carried that guilt  I should have never told her

i love you dearest so foolish of me.