remember

smoke drifts quietly across the room as i asked the bartender for another shot.
he poured the tequila and went back to mix more temporarily forget your worries juice
i feel dizzy now, the room feels like its shaking, getting dizzy getting ..
its been a long times since ive been in these places last time was when we first met...

a common friend introduced us, till then we never looked back
some say we were too fast, some say we were destined
we love each other thats all that mattered..
now i dont know, did we really loved . did it matter that we never fought.


its like that we just drifted apart,
no goodbyes no bitter words just one kiss
and thats all she wrote.

i try to go to these places and hope she'll be there like the first time we met
dancing on the ledge to the music of 90's not caring if somebody is watching
shes a great gal, dont get me wrong just goes out more than your average gurl nothings wrong.
shes a sweet gal no doubt 1 year of being stuck together like rice those times were so nice.

i didnt see it coming her leaving, did i hugged her enough were the kisses i gave not sweet enough
those i love yous each day i whisper while i hold her hand couldnt make her change her mind


almost i cried coz they played the tune in mah mind, the one she sings to me
before we kiss, the song she sings when she makes love to me...
"whenever i sing mah songs on the stage on mah own when ever say mah words wishing that
they would be heard"

mah heart sang with the band, i just played cool and finished mah 5th glass
used the napkin on the table to wipe the tears that fall, each word the singer belted out
each tear i wiped it out, no body in the room noticed that i whispered each word.
each line of the song i know coz each line i loved so true...

just passed 1 am and im soo tired, ive been like this since 3 weeks
3 weeks of searchin the morning she left..



its like that we just drifted apart,
no goodbyes no bitter words just one kiss
and thats all she wrote.

looks like its gonna be another sad drive, hope i make it home tonight
tom we shall see if i have life left in me, so search for her thats mah plan
ill find her, and all will be back as it is. of us being one of us just livin life
til time waves at us goodbye.


pancit canton


finally im almost home from what felt like a day on hells bosom
walkin towards sanctuary, felt the munchies as i pass by a store..
the little store where an angel keeps watch, think ill buy
pancit canton for dinner tonight

as i approach the little store mah thoughts were not of canton
but rather what to say when i face her again
coz the last time didnt go well, couldnt say anything mah
mind got lost garbled msgs all i could say, and she turned away...

how do you do, how was your day, did you think of me the whole day?
here i come ill ask now , "pabili nga po ng canton yung green 3 po"
all i could say. while she says " aba ginabi ka ahh" while she fetched
the canton from the glass cabinet, overtime eh, as if she knows
what time i should be home.

and there was magic there
her eyes didnt leave mine while she bagged what i asked for.
so slow was the scene as if time stood still...
i held out mah hand to pay for the canton mah hand touched hers
and felt that magic again, i think i saw a flash and mah heart
almost jumped out at that moment when i saw what reflected in her eyes
what the smile she had meant and that aura i felt from her..

yan lang dinner mo? she asked me.. tamad ako magluto eh . all i could muster as a reply
still our eyes never strayed away from both our stare..and i could see
she is more relaxed at ease with me, and i tensed as a string on a guitar
couldnt think of what to say next hope she doesnt think that im a pest

ohh meroon ka pa bibilhin?.. coz she noticed that ive been standing
and not sayin anything.. ha.. ahh wala na sige thank you..
mah mind now blank from being dazed with her smile that deprived mah
thoughts of a logical phrase wanted to say more but its obvious
i got lost tried to recover and not fall from grace
ill ask for her name hope its not too late

hmmm i tried to start..hmmm thats all that came out..hmmm

ano pa ba bibilhin mo ha? she asked me..hmmm isa pang canton please
kulang eh...ok wait lang ha... all she said
i slapped mah self coz i couldnt, i couldnt even ask her name
ohh well maybe ill try again tom maybe hope she still here
hope ill be able to ask her.

coz tom ill be thinkin of her ,thinkin my canton will be cooked by her someday
but till den first thing is first i have to ask her name ...

this story is about


woke up and couldnt figure it out, felt so dreary i believe
the night before was so blurry like a snow storm that burried me.
i could remember but part of it i could see we had a fight
argued bout everything and never let each other give up an inch of ground
stood up and walked towards the bath room, standing there i remember
we used to play, brushing mah teeth while you covered mah eyes with your panties.
now im alone standing facing the mirror wondering how did this happen


but i guess ill be free, free to come home late free to not come at all
free to have the remote for my own, free being alone..

took a shower that was quick, toweld mah self dry and dressed
walked passed the fridge you always complained about loose door hinged ill replace it
but still i havent done that.

full of memories the house you left i stood starin at the couch we always watched movies on
its a little old you said once before. it was a wedding gift from your aunti flor.

5 years we shared this house now i remember the date we first stepped into this house
full of promises full of laughs i never thought that it would not last.

went back to the kitchen and tried to make breakfast but i remembered
you didnt do the groceries yesterday coz i wasnt home for 3 days


but i guess ill be free, free to come home late free to not come at all
free to have the remote for my own, free being alone..

i just made mah self coffee and got ready for work
the car still fresh with your perfume, i gave you that scent to cover up a blunder i made
i forgot our date to meet at your cousins birthday last week..

full of memories still mah mind but i couldnt hold on to the love i longed
pawmized each other to love till we got older and not remember what we had for dinner..
a pawmize i tried a pawmize i lied,

but i guess ill be free, free to come home late free to not come at all
free to have the remote for my own, free being alone..


tried to start the car but before i could turn on the ignition i saw your wedding ring on the dash
i read the engraving " a pawmize to love a pawmize ill keep love with all mah heart mah soul ill gladly give"
tears started to fall after reading soul... im sorry love i was weak i couldnt keep the pawmize i made.
were ever you are love please remember me we had a love we both knew was true
i made mistakes im sorry i hurt you..

i said to mah self those words and remembered all the sweetnes she gave. i took her for granted i said
to mah self she left me coz i loved only mah self.

went back to the house coz i didnt feel i could work, layed down on the couch and cryd mah eyes out.
i miss you all i could utter all mah words meant nothing each word a blunder

i miss you dont leave me alone i tried to be strong but i couldnt hold the sharade for that long..
i miss you i was wrong i didnt held you when you were cold and alone at night i didnt tell you i love you when
you were cryin mah love i didnt listen to you when you have sometin to say

i didnt say love you enough to make you stay...



but i guess ill be free, free to come home late free to not come at all
free to have the remote for my own, free being alone..